Mar 21, 2018

It's been more than a couple years since I've posted. So much has happened since.

First, my oldest was diagnosed with thyroid cancer in 2016. She was 19 at the time of diagnosis. This diagnosis came two years after I kept bringing up symptoms to her doctor that I thought were thyroid related and they blew me off. Repeatedly. I finally asked her gynecologist to run a blood test. Guess what? Yup, thyroid disease. I took those results back to her doctor and she felt her thyroid, turned to me, and said, "Her thyroid is swollen. Do you see that?" Are you FREAKING kidding me? I was livid. An ultrasound and biopsy later, we had a papillary thyroid cancer diagnosis on top of thyroid disease. They removed her thyroid and treated her with RAI (radioactive iodine) to kill off any remaining thyroid cells remaining after surgery. She gets bloodwork done every six months (regular thyroid hormone level tests plus thyroglobulin to check for cancer reoccurrence). It can come back. There is no remission since thyroid cells can always grow (bringing the cancer with it, I guess). She'll have to have labs done for the rest of her life to check for cancer reoccurrence. Because of the RAI, she is also at higher risk for developing secondary cancers down the road and will take thyroid medication the rest of her life (the goal is TSH suppression to keep cancer away).

Learning your child has cancer? Hell.

Telling your child she has cancer? Hell.

Leaving her room when they were taking her to surgery? Hell.

Letting them put radioactive iodine into her body to kill off her current cancer, and hoping it wouldn't bring a secondary cancer down the road? Hell. 

My youngest, who was ten at the time, was also diagnosed with thyroid disease at the same time as my daughter's cancer diagnosis. Her pediatrician tried to blow it all off but I insisted on testing. I was right to insist. She is also on thyroid medication the rest of her life. 

Three weeks after my daughter finished her thyroid cancer treatment, my kids' school had a school shooting. Three of four of my kids were there. My middle daughter was a couple classroom doors down from where the shooter shot a student and was shooting into classrooms. The kids either broke through windows and jumped out or ran down halls and into fields as far as they could go to safety. The PTSD from that took a few months to get through for my girls. Loud noises were hard. If somebody slammed a door, the look of terror in their eyes was horrible because to them, it sounded like a gunshot. My son seemed like he handled it ok but he also developed chronic physical hives to heat (hot car, blushing, etc.) afterward so I'm not sure he handled it as well as he thought he was handling it. 

Then! Oh yeah, there's a then! My youngest was in a school bus accident. She is in physical therapy twice a week as they try to fix the damage this inept bus driver caused. It's been four months and there's not a day that has gone by without pain. Not only did they not check students for injury, they moved them to another bus and went on with their route before the police even arrived at the accident scene!! You'd think our school was being run by a bunch of gomers. You'd be right. 

The last few years? Hell. 

My thyroid disease? I was doing great until I made the mistake of leaving the "good thyroid doctor" for a doctor closer to home because he agreed to keep the meds the same for that that the "good thyroid doctor" prescribed. Problem? He then retired. The latest doctor cut my thyroid medication down more than half! Talk about going hypo and hashi crazy since Fall. He managed to ruin nine years of feeling good in only a few months. Not only did I gain 25 pounds and become very exhausted, my thyroid or goiter or something is so inflamed that it is pressing on my vocal cords or something because I can barely talk. I haven't had a voice in several months. My husband says I sound like a squirrel. When I went to the doctor a few weeks ago to tell him and request my old dose back, he didn't believe me. He said it was "drainage". FOR MONTHS? I won't be going back to him. 

I have since increased my thyroid med dose back to what it used to be on my own and my voice is starting to come back. Instead of sounding like a squirrel now, I sound more like a boy going through puberty with voice cracking but it's coming back.  I feel like I'm coming out of a fog. I can't get into a new, functional medicine doctor until May (meanwhile, I'm trying to get back into the "good thyroid doctor" but they're not taking more patients right now).

So, that's the not so short and not so sweet update. Despite everything, my kids are awesome kids. They're doing well in school and growing into great adults. Two are in college, one graduates in a little over a year and my youngest has a few years left until she is ready to graduate and fly the coop. My husband is always (still) such a sweetheart.

Dec 14, 2015

Vaccines

I used to be pro-vax. Hmmm...not really pro-vax but just did what the doctors told me to do without thought. No thought whatsoever to how many vaccines my babies were being given at once or what was in them. I didn't compare the small number of vaccines my generation received to the huge bombardment kids get today and wonder about why. We did more research on a car we wanted to buy than what was being injected in our child's body. Reactions were dismissed as no big deal. That's shameful to me now. That was a parent fail. Until a light bulb went off and I started reading and researching the studies, the conflicts of interest, the vaccine injured and how it's dismissed, the greed that fuels the industry, experienced firsthand the way many doctors are led by big Pharma. Until I wondered how people who think our govt is corrupt, lying, greedy cheats automatically trust them with our children's lives and to protect us when they're tied to Big Pharma. 

At least if you're going to vaccinate, educate yourself with the vaccine insert (not the summary sheet your dr gives you but the big insert), educate yourself about individual vaccines instead of the multiple vaccines in one, and spread them out. Don't bombard a baby's immune system with so much at once. Many people who are anti vaccine used to be for them and there's a reason they're not now. 

Oct 22, 2014

Football season is almost over with. While I'm glad about that (LOTS of drama at the high school this season), I'm not so thrilled with having to replace my daughter's flute for concert band that starts after marching band (Football) is over with. It's her senior year. I have to replace a flute for her...for only about six months of use! Ugh.  I really wish her current flute had lasted another six months.

I'll check around online for used ones as well as at musician friend and see what I can find. This purchase is going to hurt.




What are you listening to right now?

I'm listening to Grace Potter and the Nocturnals "Turntable"..new song I just found.


'Cause I will be your record
And you will be my turntable
I'm your amplifier
And you're my RCA cable
Jump up down up down
Down down baby up
One kiss and I'm disabled
I will be your record
And you will be my turntable

The music is good but I'm not so sure about the lyrics. I never would've thought to equate a relationship to old school records. Eh. Not a fan after listening to it once.

It's been a not so healthy start to Autumn so far for me. My allergies have never been this bad. It's so bad, my eyes are now on steroids for the swelling, tearing and redness. My eyelids and skin around my eyes was actually peeling off and crusting from over sensitivity to the constant tearing. I could've created a great Halloween Zombie costume with the way my face was peeling off.  Ugh.

As much as I hate steroids, I had to give in. It affected me all day long, driving, etc. I've been using them 24 hours and what a difference in my eyes. What a relief!