Mar 21, 2018

It's been more than a couple years since I've posted. So much has happened since.

First, my oldest was diagnosed with thyroid cancer in 2016. She was 19 at the time of diagnosis. This diagnosis came two years after I kept bringing up symptoms to her doctor that I thought were thyroid related and they blew me off. Repeatedly. I finally asked her gynecologist to run a blood test. Guess what? Yup, thyroid disease. I took those results back to her doctor and she felt her thyroid, turned to me, and said, "Her thyroid is swollen. Do you see that?" Are you FREAKING kidding me? I was livid. An ultrasound and biopsy later, we had a papillary thyroid cancer diagnosis on top of thyroid disease. They removed her thyroid and treated her with RAI (radioactive iodine) to kill off any remaining thyroid cells remaining after surgery. She gets bloodwork done every six months (regular thyroid hormone level tests plus thyroglobulin to check for cancer reoccurrence). It can come back. There is no remission since thyroid cells can always grow (bringing the cancer with it, I guess). She'll have to have labs done for the rest of her life to check for cancer reoccurrence. Because of the RAI, she is also at higher risk for developing secondary cancers down the road and will take thyroid medication the rest of her life (the goal is TSH suppression to keep cancer away).

Learning your child has cancer? Hell.

Telling your child she has cancer? Hell.

Leaving her room when they were taking her to surgery? Hell.

Letting them put radioactive iodine into her body to kill off her current cancer, and hoping it wouldn't bring a secondary cancer down the road? Hell. 

My youngest, who was ten at the time, was also diagnosed with thyroid disease at the same time as my daughter's cancer diagnosis. Her pediatrician tried to blow it all off but I insisted on testing. I was right to insist. She is also on thyroid medication the rest of her life. 

Three weeks after my daughter finished her thyroid cancer treatment, my kids' school had a school shooting. Three of four of my kids were there. My middle daughter was a couple classroom doors down from where the shooter shot a student and was shooting into classrooms. The kids either broke through windows and jumped out or ran down halls and into fields as far as they could go to safety. The PTSD from that took a few months to get through for my girls. Loud noises were hard. If somebody slammed a door, the look of terror in their eyes was horrible because to them, it sounded like a gunshot. My son seemed like he handled it ok but he also developed chronic physical hives to heat (hot car, blushing, etc.) afterward so I'm not sure he handled it as well as he thought he was handling it. 

Then! Oh yeah, there's a then! My youngest was in a school bus accident. She is in physical therapy twice a week as they try to fix the damage this inept bus driver caused. It's been four months and there's not a day that has gone by without pain. Not only did they not check students for injury, they moved them to another bus and went on with their route before the police even arrived at the accident scene!! You'd think our school was being run by a bunch of gomers. You'd be right. 

The last few years? Hell. 

My thyroid disease? I was doing great until I made the mistake of leaving the "good thyroid doctor" for a doctor closer to home because he agreed to keep the meds the same for that that the "good thyroid doctor" prescribed. Problem? He then retired. The latest doctor cut my thyroid medication down more than half! Talk about going hypo and hashi crazy since Fall. He managed to ruin nine years of feeling good in only a few months. Not only did I gain 25 pounds and become very exhausted, my thyroid or goiter or something is so inflamed that it is pressing on my vocal cords or something because I can barely talk. I haven't had a voice in several months. My husband says I sound like a squirrel. When I went to the doctor a few weeks ago to tell him and request my old dose back, he didn't believe me. He said it was "drainage". FOR MONTHS? I won't be going back to him. 

I have since increased my thyroid med dose back to what it used to be on my own and my voice is starting to come back. Instead of sounding like a squirrel now, I sound more like a boy going through puberty with voice cracking but it's coming back.  I feel like I'm coming out of a fog. I can't get into a new, functional medicine doctor until May (meanwhile, I'm trying to get back into the "good thyroid doctor" but they're not taking more patients right now).

So, that's the not so short and not so sweet update. Despite everything, my kids are awesome kids. They're doing well in school and growing into great adults. Two are in college, one graduates in a little over a year and my youngest has a few years left until she is ready to graduate and fly the coop. My husband is always (still) such a sweetheart.

Dec 14, 2015

Vaccines

I used to be pro-vax. Hmmm...not really pro-vax but just did what the doctors told me to do without thought. No thought whatsoever to how many vaccines my babies were being given at once or what was in them. I didn't compare the small number of vaccines my generation received to the huge bombardment kids get today and wonder about why. We did more research on a car we wanted to buy than what was being injected in our child's body. Reactions were dismissed as no big deal. That's shameful to me now. That was a parent fail. Until a light bulb went off and I started reading and researching the studies, the conflicts of interest, the vaccine injured and how it's dismissed, the greed that fuels the industry, experienced firsthand the way many doctors are led by big Pharma. Until I wondered how people who think our govt is corrupt, lying, greedy cheats automatically trust them with our children's lives and to protect us when they're tied to Big Pharma. 

At least if you're going to vaccinate, educate yourself with the vaccine insert (not the summary sheet your dr gives you but the big insert), educate yourself about individual vaccines instead of the multiple vaccines in one, and spread them out. Don't bombard a baby's immune system with so much at once. Many people who are anti vaccine used to be for them and there's a reason they're not now. 

Oct 22, 2014

Football season is almost over with. While I'm glad about that (LOTS of drama at the high school this season), I'm not so thrilled with having to replace my daughter's flute for concert band that starts after marching band (Football) is over with. It's her senior year. I have to replace a flute for her...for only about six months of use! Ugh.  I really wish her current flute had lasted another six months.

I'll check around online for used ones as well as at musician friend and see what I can find. This purchase is going to hurt.




What are you listening to right now?

I'm listening to Grace Potter and the Nocturnals "Turntable"..new song I just found.


'Cause I will be your record
And you will be my turntable
I'm your amplifier
And you're my RCA cable
Jump up down up down
Down down baby up
One kiss and I'm disabled
I will be your record
And you will be my turntable

The music is good but I'm not so sure about the lyrics. I never would've thought to equate a relationship to old school records. Eh. Not a fan after listening to it once.

It's been a not so healthy start to Autumn so far for me. My allergies have never been this bad. It's so bad, my eyes are now on steroids for the swelling, tearing and redness. My eyelids and skin around my eyes was actually peeling off and crusting from over sensitivity to the constant tearing. I could've created a great Halloween Zombie costume with the way my face was peeling off.  Ugh.

As much as I hate steroids, I had to give in. It affected me all day long, driving, etc. I've been using them 24 hours and what a difference in my eyes. What a relief!

Sep 5, 2014

A home business owner I know just put her horse tack business up for sale. She makes bridles, halters, lead ropes out of certain kinds of rope. We have two of her products for our two horses. I'm not going to buy her business (I'm not disciplined enough for a full business like that) but it's interesting.

Some of it is rounded rope and some is flat (reminds me of the for buyheatshrink's selection that goes over wires) but it's just a flat rope. She made me a black and coral bridle for my spotted clydesdale/paint cross and matching reins.

I've not been riding since last fall. My youngest daughter seems to be taking over the riding lessons and getting into horses. I would imagine my oldest daughter's horse will soon become our youngest daughter's horse once our eldest goes away to college. She'll probably get the future college student's dog too.

My last pregnancy (our youngest is nine years old) was a painful pregnancy. Every movement I made hurt (stretched ligaments or something). We decided that we were done having kids at this point (we had four together + his two = six kids...he was 40 and didn't want to be retiring and having kids...and really, six is enough).

Every once in awhile, the urge hits but I think it is more an urge just to hold a little one and then give it back. I've had that urge lately and my husband tells me today if my health was better (it's fine) and he wasn't almost 50, he wouldn't mind another baby.

While the thought makes me a little happy, another part of me thinks about being up all night, packing diaper bags, wipes, bottles, car seats and not being able to leave the house as easily as we do now ('hey so and so, we're leaving, watch your little sister' kiss, kiss and we are out the door) and I just don't want to start over.


Jul 22, 2014

So we are looking at buying a horse boarding business that happens to be run on the property we are looking at buying (we are home shopping). It has almost 13 acres. Good thing is - we wouldn't have to move our horses to our new home...they're boarded at that same stable.

It has a playset (like these playsets in chesapeake) in the backyard for the kids already that we'd leave until our youngest outgrew. Then I'd go pool shopping I think. Maybe hot tub shopping too.

Not sure we are ready to own an equine boarding facility but the thought is out there. We'll have to think about it.

Jul 18, 2014

I know it's only July but it's time to start getting ready for the next school year (boo, I know).  Soccer started a few weeks ago. Cheer has started but it isn't mandatory yet. Band camp starts next week and we need drum sticks so we're taking a drive into the city today (I can say that because we live in the boonies) for sticks. I wish we had time to order the ones my son would really want but we'll make do with the music store the school uses.

I prefer to buy things from big name music places like Musician's Friend. Learn more about us at MusiciansFriend.com. However, as is the "norm" with teenagers, we didn't find out in enough time to get what we needed here by the crack of dawn Monday morning.

Jun 11, 2014

In the last decade, the economy has done all kinds of things, leaving many people struggling. We've been there but we've been one of the lucky families in that my husband has kept his job all these years. The hours weren't always there but he always had his job and we always had insurance. There were a few times we had creditors looking for their owed money and we were left wondering what our rights were and about creditor rights. It's a hard balancing act to manage when money gets tight and creditors are knocking (well, calling), kids need to be fed and clothed, and you need to keep the roof over their head. The last year has been better in terms of hours and we're doing OK. Not everybody is doing as well though.

Know your rights. Know the creditors' rights.

I've been juicing and making smoothies the last month since I got the new Breville juicer and Ninja blender. They are AWESOME. I love them both, but I REALLY love the blender. If the Breville juicer was easier to clean (not all parts are dishwasher safe), I'd love that just as much too...well, almost as much.

It is so easy to toss some veggies into a smoothie and hide it in fruits for my kids. I just grab a handful of spinach and voila - the kids are eating a vegetable they can't taste! I got the one with the individual cups too so it's easy to blend and go for myself or one of my kids.

For the juicer, a bunch of carrots and handful of kale or spinach with fruits and they're getting vegetable juice.

These are the two I have:



Apr 16, 2014

What a week we've had.


My mother went into the hospital last Friday for pain. They thought it was her heart, did a bunch of heart tests, and came back with regurgitation and branch block.  However, that wasn't what was causing her pain. They sent her home still in discomfort after being there all weekend. After all, an entire hospital can only check for heart problems and nothing else. *sarcasm*

The next day, she is bent double in pain. My sister took her to a different hospital where she had an upper GI, colonoscopy, and ultrasound/x-ray on the gallbladder.  Turns out she has gallstones, GERD, diverticulosis, and a hiatal hernia. So, the doctor thinks the gallbladder is the culprit and wants to take it out on Friday. My mom - who does not like doctors - is trying to find a natural way to break up the gallstones. 

So, after four days in the ER over the long weekend, the trip to the GI doctor, and the hospital tests today, she's going to be looking at a pretty big bill. 

I think she needs to look at these health insurance quotes. Seriously, the pain of the bill is going to hurt more than the gallstones I'm thinking.

Mar 31, 2014

Builders, painters, home improvement gurus, you all know what trisodium phosphate (TSP) is, right? That degreasing, cleaner? Did you know, you and your kids might be eating it for breakfast?

Here's the video.

Some people say it's ok, other's don't. What say you?




Mar 25, 2014

My daughter sees several storefronts in our little town for rent and keeps asking us to rent one and open our own business. I briefly thought about it but I don't have that kind of start-up cash, have no idea what kind of business we would open, and if I'd want to tie myself to a family business around the clock.


I could open a bookstore/coffeehouse. I could get into a bookstore type of business since I am quite the bookworm nerd. I've thought about a self-defense store as well. Our town doesn't have one of those. 

Or, I could nix the storefront and just go with eoncode web2print instead.

Since we are considering homeschooling, a storefront business is not the most feasible to start.

Out of all the bad food choices we make, if we had to eliminate one choice that would make the most difference to our health, what would it be?

Mar 11, 2014

In two weeks, we start college visits for our oldest child. We have appointments for one college that is within driving distance (but way too expensive) and one she would have to live in the dorms in order to attend but it's much more affordable than the private, local college. Scary times, thinking about my daughter leaving home in what could be forever. In any event, things are going to change.

Gosh, I really can't believe my firstborn little girl is growing up.

This bug I've been dealing with for a week should be well and gone by the first college visit...just in time for me to get all teary and stuffy head weeping over the fact my kid is looking at colleges.

All winter long, I nursed kids and my husband while they went through the stomach virus and colds.  Each of them (five) all passed things back and forth and even though I was in the middle of it all, I got by without catching their bug. 


Cue spring. It's warming up, spring is on its way. What happens? I get a cold! No! Ack! I almost made it. 

Feb 18, 2014

My husband is putting his Johnson acoustic up for sale. This was the one guitar he kept the longest, but lo and behold, it's going up for sale. Ugh. So, I wonder what he wants now. Perhaps another acoustic or a mark morton signature d2 dominion perhaps?

I just wish he'd keep one or two guitars FOREVER. No lie - in the 18 years we've been married, he's probably had 40 (?) guitars. He buys, plays and either doesn't like it - period - or finds something better.

I really thought this Johnson acoustic guitar had a chance.

*sigh*

Jan 29, 2014

The chemical spill in West Virginia has me thinking. If something like that were to happen here, we would not be prepared in any way. Should we be stocking up on water? Should we be checking into filters (though I don't think those would have helped West Virginia).

For the health of my family, I think it's something we should be thinking about. I don't want to be a doomsday conspiracy theorist or anything but West Virginia was human error, right? That could happen. What if those flares knocks the power grid out? That's not conspiracy. They say that could really happen and soon.

It kinda hit home because we almost moved there 14 years ago. My husband turned the job down so we didn't move to West Virginia, right to the heart of the water crisis.


So part of my health issues and then the emergencies we've had the last couple years (my daughter grabbing a few hundred degrees worth of curling iron in the palm of her hand, my daughter's stomach issues she had at one point) all added up to medical debt we were drowning in.

I am HAPPY to say we are almost out of medical debt. After child support ended this past summer, I started applying that money towards the stack of medical bills and it has paid off - literally. We have ONE bill left.

Boy does that feel good.